I am at this  point let’s say, in between homes. It is ok. I will get along. Of course, Lucie my big, red dog is with me. I am staying in a mobile home park that is made up of several main streets and lots of little streets that lead to nowhere.

So, Lucie and I went out for a walk and yes, we got lost. I was sure that certain streets would lead me back to my destination.

Yea, right. After I figured out that said streets were leading us nowhere I finally found my way out of the maze and back to main street. That was fine and good except we were still quite a ways from where we needed to be.

Let’s just say that Lucie and I slept well last night.

Needless to say, there was no walk today.

I  am quite sure we all feel the loss of Whitney Houston. Truth be told, addiction is quite frankly a horrible thing for anyone to deal with. Family, friends, and people who care. I wish this on no one.

I watch American Idol every now and then. I used to watch every season. Now, not so much.

I have watched contestants try to do Whitney Houston’s music. I never seen anyone come close. Not until the last night.

Miss Jessica Sanchez nailed I Will Always Love You.

So sweet and bittersweet at the same time.

We can not always help someone in turmoil, but we can always love them.

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Without going into too much detail my life has taken quite a few twists and turns over the last six months. I lost my job due to my company going under. My mom was diagnosed with cancer. I watched someone I do care about battle a demon.

A few days ago I made a choice that will change my life in many ways. It is time to change. I want the change. I pray that all will work out. I am not worried or scared. I trust that things will work out for the best.

I have so many people tell me that I need to seek help for a situation that I have lived with for a long time. I just want everyone to know that I do not feel guilty, sad, or desperate. I really am fine. I am not co-dependant and I do have compassion.

I am stubborn and I do not like to accept help. But, I am smart enough to know when I should.

I made my choices because I felt they were the right thing to do. That is all I have to say about that.

All I ask now is that people pray for me. I know they already do.

I will survive.
I will have a great life.
I will kick Lucie my big, red dog out of my bed when she hogs space.

Now, I am off to do something that always brings me pleasure. Dance to one of the best songs of the 70s.

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I seem to have a lot of random thoughts crossing my mind lately. I need to let them out. So here we go.

I know the beauty of a single flower.

I’ve witnessed too many weeds.

A beautiful song can make me dance.

An ugly word can make me cower.

I’ve seen despair and the greatest of heartache.

I’ve seen rebirth and joy.

Love has come my way.

Pain, one too many times.

I witnessed triumph.

I stood proud in loss.

I do not understand weakness.

I do not give up.

Sometimes it is hard to put one foot in front of the other.

I do because I have watched others do so.

Sometimes I do not want to do the right thing.

Yet, I do.

I stop to smell the roses and pet my dog.

This keeps me going.

Tomorrow is another day.

I know that title sounds a bit redundant. Oh well. Yesterday I went to lunch with a couple of bestie former co-workers. We had  a nice meal at a local restaurant known for a wide variety of salad choices. I hate when you go out to eat and order a salad with your dinner and said salad is nothing more than lettuce and tomatoes. I was able to build a tasty salad with my favorites such as garbanzo beans, eggs, and bell peppers.

Miss G and Miss L are the kind of people that have your back. They care and are among a very few co-workers that I can honestly say give a crap and I can call friends.

One day I lost the diamond out of my engagement ring. It fell out of the setting and needless to say it was an upsetting experience. Miss G went with me to look for the diamond. Can you believe it? She found it in one of four elevators in our building. What are the chances? I call her me little Me-e-can friend. She is Hispanic and I am not stereotyping. She is Mexican and she teaches me about her culture.

Miss L is like a  surrogate mother. Not that I need one. Still, she has offered me money, housing, and wisdom. She tries her best to feed you at every turn. At one point she kept a jar of candy on her desk so the office could indulge. Everyday she would offer candy to me. I am not much of a sweet eating person. I told her to fill the jar with pizza and I would be all over that.

Anyway, we decided to make our lunch date a monthly occurrence. I look forward to luncheon with the ladies. Man, am I getting old or what?

No, just filling my heart.

I like this.

That is all I have to say about that.

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I do not usually name the town I live in only saying I live in the Desert Southwest. But, if you were reading my blog one year ago today then I am sure you figured out that I live in Tucson.

One year ago today tragedy struck our town. 13 people were shot and injured and 6 were killed. Among them was nine year old Christina Taylor Green. Congresswoman Gabrielle Giffords was shot in the the head and has gone on the make an amazing recovery.

I remember my blog looked more like a twitter feed that day as the news unfolded. We were all glued to the TV listening to the events as they were broad casted.

Tonight Tucson held a candlelight vigil for the victims and survivors of the terrible day. Gabby led the pledge of allegiance with pride and vigor.

Families lit candles in remembrance.

Most importantly, our town has moved forward. Why, because we came together. Tucson may be a small place but it is full of big hearts.

We will never forget.

On January 8th of this year, me and many other Americans watched the horrifying events that unfolded as Congresswoman Gabrielle Giffords and 18 other people were shot at a Safeway store in Tucson. Six of the victims lost their lives that day. The rest had to embark on the road to recovery to gain what was taken from them that day.

Since I live in the town that that massacre occured I, along with the rest of my fellow citizens felt the profound effects of that day. We all sat glued to our TVs and prayed for those people. This photo touched our hearts and gave us hope, inspiration, and courage.

On Monday night I watched as Diane Sawyer interviewed Gabby and her husband Mark Kelly. We all have points in our lives when we may feel down and out. Everyone has felt sorry for themselves. I am no different. All I can say is Gabby demonstrated a great lesson. Never give up. Oh, I am sure she and her husband had bad days. They are only human too. Still, her story is inspriring.

Yea, Life’s Like a Box of Chocolates. You truly do not know what you are going to get. But sometimes you will be surprised by the sweetness.

Go Gabby. Sweet.

Every morning around 9:30 my internet connection goes out and I have to reset my modem. It took me a few days to figure out that this happens around the same time every day. 9:30. It is frustrating because sometimes I am in the middle of stuff like filling out applications and all of a sudden I have nothing.

I do not know why this happens. I also do not have the patience to sit on the phone with tech support to find out what the problem may be. All I know is that 9:30 just happens to fall after the dog walk/workout/shower routine is over. I guess I could start later but I never seem to think about it at the time.

This morning I got to thinking that maybe the connection has been this way all along because how would I know? I was never here at 9:30 except the weekends and I never really went online that early.

Anyway, I guess I will just have to deal with it. Either that or break down and call my provider. Not.

Was that Chaz Bono doing Rocky? Yes, I do believe it was. I have to admit, I was pleasantly surprised. Sort of. I still do not think he has any dancing skills but you have to give him credit for getting out there in the first place.

I think that performance may keep him around another week. But you never know on Dancing With the Stars. I felt sorry for Chynna. She just lost it and never recovered. I liked Rob Kardashian as well as J.R Martinez and Ricki Lake.

But Chaz running up those stairs was definitly a show stopper. Good for him. Good for the underdogs.

And OMG, Richard Simmons! Enough said.

Can’t wait to see what happens tonight.

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