This is a hard post to write. Today, June 23rd 2010 marks the one year Angelversary of our Lolly Pop Kid. People say that time heals all wounds. That is a lie. It feels just as bad today as it did one year ago.

I am avoiding the clock, because I know what time I received the call telling me he went to heaven.

I woke up today mad because my house is a mess. I tried to clean up but, I realize that a messy house is nothing compared to this pain I feel.

I truly wish I could take my daughter, Cinderella’s pain away. Just as I know Grandma M would like to take my pain and Cinderella’s pain away. We know this it not possible.

So many lives were changed that day, one year ago. Changes that can not be undone.

I remember at first that I worried about where Lolly was and who was taking care of him. I soon realized that God and those that went to Heaven before were taking care of him and he was safe.

At his service, the Minister said these words, “Donovan never knew anything but Love, nothing but people who cared about him. He was lucky to have a life filled with love.” This was a great comfort to me, because it is so true.

We grieve because we miss him. Truth be told, I have Faith that he is well taken care of and we will see him again. I struggled with this at first, but I realize that he is in heaven with other family members and I have Faith that he is well.

He was named after two Grandfathers. Donovan Edward. Yes, I am using his real name.  One, Edward is in Heaven, the other my Dad, Donovan, is here.

This is a very hard day. nuf said.

That is all I have to say about that.